Need to get over it though, really think this is the best way to get some energy out of the colours and work with pastels always looks nicely textured. It will help me get a bit freer which i desperately need as well. These are some quick tests with colour and movement.
Now these just make me happy, I know they are far from perfect but they represent the first step to conquering a very real fear of mine. This vibrancy needs to be translated into my final work I think. Need to try some more pastel work on different coloured papers and with a more finished look but definitely no cleaner.